gays adult

The bigotry one encounters in society. People (hetros) who you think are cool uttering homophobic remarks. It never will cease to amaze me how ingrained homophobia can be. Individuals who do not believe themselves to be homophobic are, and they are insulted when you point out homophobic statements or opinions that they express.

I always wonder why who I "fuck" is important to anyone other than the person I am screwing.

The subtle bullshit, the looks, the casual avoidance are the things I hate.

Hardest thing for me is being in the closet, and as a result contradicting my own values.

I stay in the closet, for now, ’cause I don’t want to be isolated and victimized at school. Where as I usually don’t care about what others have think or say about me.

Also I’m starting to obsess about thinking about my own feelings and emotions a lot more than thinking about others. Where as I prefer to think of others before me.

Not to mention I love to stand up to myself and for others if I feel I have to or I’m offended by a remark. But I rarely react to homophobic remarks or worse, I pretend to agree with them if there is suspicion of me being gay.

And finally, I love to think of the future at the time when I’m out of the closet, openly happy about what I am, which will start to happen after I graduate. But one of my values is to live in the "now" and not live in the past or future or what may happen etc